RP thoughts

[loquacious]

I've been so inactive at CFUD lately. I just can't seem to get into my groove. Part of it is that I still feel like I have way too many characters, but I can't bring myself to drop any because I like all the ones I play. That and if I drop some of them I won't ever reapp them even if I want too because it was hard enough the first time. Not to mention the fact that I don't seem to have the kind of activity I did before I left Japan.

In some ways I just don't feel like I belong there. I don't share a lot of the fandom love that it seems like a lot of other people do. This goes double for Glee, and I feel horribly bad for it since I'm in the cast and I am just not that into the fandom. In fact, I'm not into the fandom of ANY of the things I play from except maybe Dark Tower. It makes me feel uncomfortable in chan.

I think I'm going to have to drop a bunch if I want to keep going. And before that I'm going to have to consider how much I really want to keep going.

Maybe I've just outgrown RP... Which is sad considering how good it's been to me.

Comments

[unicorn]

I'm not in the fandom of anything I play except maybe, very vaguely, Temeraire, if that helps. Everyone approaches fandom in a different way!

[loquacious]

Yeah, and most of the time I'm okay with it. But recently I've been feeling like all the chans I hang out in are rabid about stuff I just am not into.

[arabesque]

WHAT SERA SAID. Also I have only watched Den-O so most of what KR chan talks about is Greek to me SO WE CAN BE BUDS? (Also I will not lie, I still have yet to watch the director's cuts for the last two Den-O movies. A WINNER IS ME)

[loquacious]

I haven't seen any of the Den-O movies. I didn't use them when I canon reviewed and I still feel kind of bad about it.

[arabesque]

NAH it's okay. I think they're more like extra "canon" (WITH BAZOOKAS 8D) and some of the time they're pretty wtf anyway. Also our cast loves hilarious timeline issues anyway--I don't think Ryoutarou has updated past the end of the series so o/

[quixotic]

I don't think you need to be into a fandom to play a character? I know I ignore a lot of my fandoms (to be fair they're either huge... or non-existent). And anyway canon doesn't equal fandom. Nobody's going to mind if you're not super into the fandom so long as the canon is still good for you.

[loquacious]

I'm not as worried about playing with lack of fandom love as I am hanging around chat with lack of fandom love. Occasionally I will just leave because I'm getting pings every few seconds while people talk about something I play from (or the character name itself) and I just... can't get into it with them.

Basically: as much as I want to be available when people need me while I'm threading I don't think chan is the right place for me anymore.

[quixotic]

Gchat works fine too! I'm only on IRC during weekends anyway.

[amber]

oh man, yeah, I'm not remotely in GLEE fandom either and it's making me feel bad. I avoid Doctor Who fandom because it's traumatic. mostly the fandoms I am really active in I don't play from at CFUD. ♥ ♥ ♥ it's not a bad thing at all and you shouldn't feel judged. in fact, I think it lends something to a person's play when they're playing directly from their interpretation of a character without it being warped and changed by cool stuff they read or popular fandom consensus. rp isn't a democracy (--except we do vote at CFUD I guess. WHATEVER MY METAPHOR STANDS.)